| There somes a time when one must really know what he is doing in order to get his life back on the road. Sometimes , all it takes is a leisurely taken coffee taken at the local coffee cafe in the cold pouring rain, sometimes all it takes is the breath when u suddenly wake up in the middle of the night to realise what u have been doing.And sometimes, sometimes all it takes is a big illness and a good rest after to know, what he is really doing with his life. Life , like love, is a road of many choices. One can even say its all about choices in life what you choose to be, what you end up being, who u finally end up with.Sure, along the road, there mabe dilemas where you sometimes want more than the one of the choice avaible, and sure there maybe situations where people are forced by their environment to make a choice they might not really be happy with. It takes 2 hands to clap. Saying this, im not sure enirely if im really makin choices based on my own judgement or am i sometimes making choice clouded by the environement. One can of course argue that all choices are influenced by environment we choose to surround ourself with, but when the lights are off and theres no one but your own voice in the night as you lay down on the bed in the pale bluish light of the night,you know its not true.All it takes is courage, courage which not everyone has.Courage which not everyone dare to have.Anyone can have blind courage , but to truely know what you really want, the obstacles you have to overcome to get to the point you want,to even know the point you want, that takes a person's true thoughts to know excactly where you wanan be at the end of the road. Saying all that, im consciously making a choice to write this down as i sit here , stuck at a laptop of collegue, while she uses my desktop to work on a project,i AM influenced by the emotions i feel and the environment i am in and all other elements to make this choice.i know i am self-contradicting, but yet i know im not for i know,this is who i am . These are my ramblings, these are my thoughts.This is , afterall who i am. |
